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[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

It ... it does matter...

I almost told her the other day, Diary, but... it was her birthday, and... maybe it's better for her, not knowing what's changed. She thinks that I'm still there... that it was better after she left.

It wasn't... it wasn't at all and ... I want to tell her so much but... I don't know why I feel like I can't. The more time goes on the less I feel like I can. It's been a while now... and ... and maybe... maybe she really doesn't miss me at all. But... that's okay. I can still miss for the both of us. Like I always cried for the both of us...

Oh... oh and we're leaving really really soon and I won't have any time to draw her anything...!! ... I wonder what being out in the desert is really like...

I'm a little scared.